A Not so Graceful freedom
In my rush to get my cast removed, i've discovered that i didn't exactly consider the fact that my foot would still need time to heal. i don't know what i expected to happen...that the cast would come off and i would throw my crutches to the roadside and start gleefully running? actually, it's more painful learning how to walk again then it was before the cast was on. i have very little muscle and it still hurts to put weight on it.
i have to admit that i was quite disappointed to miss out on the 4th of july picnic that some of our friends hosted at the park. instead, i stayed home and took a loooong nap then watched a movie. i guess i desperately needed a lesson in patience. it's been the hardest thing to watch everyone else go out exploring new places and trying new things while having to sit on the sidelines. i've tried to be gracious but it's pretty frustrating. it's like looking out of the window and seeing all of the beautiful things but not being able to get up and go outside. literally. i think that by this weekend i'll be able to get out and about and maybe i'll have learned to appreciate things a bit more.
yesterday i asked my students, "isn't this supposed to be rainy season? why isn't it raining very much?" they explained that the season officially starts on july 10th but that the weather this year has been very unusual. it rained a lot when we first got here (which was supposed to be the hot season) and then it went back to the hot season and postponed the rainy season. of course, after asking my students about it, i got home from school and the skies just opened up and poured out rain. it seemed like a relief. the night of the 4th of july, i was sitting in my room and looking out the window, wishing i could see some fireworks. all of the sudden, the sky was streaked with flashes of lightening which continued throughout the night. my own personal light show. i felt my furrowed brow relax and my face round into a smile. even though i had been feeling quite disappointed and overwhelmed by everything, the lightening hit me like a sign. everything will be alright.
i have to admit that i was quite disappointed to miss out on the 4th of july picnic that some of our friends hosted at the park. instead, i stayed home and took a loooong nap then watched a movie. i guess i desperately needed a lesson in patience. it's been the hardest thing to watch everyone else go out exploring new places and trying new things while having to sit on the sidelines. i've tried to be gracious but it's pretty frustrating. it's like looking out of the window and seeing all of the beautiful things but not being able to get up and go outside. literally. i think that by this weekend i'll be able to get out and about and maybe i'll have learned to appreciate things a bit more.
yesterday i asked my students, "isn't this supposed to be rainy season? why isn't it raining very much?" they explained that the season officially starts on july 10th but that the weather this year has been very unusual. it rained a lot when we first got here (which was supposed to be the hot season) and then it went back to the hot season and postponed the rainy season. of course, after asking my students about it, i got home from school and the skies just opened up and poured out rain. it seemed like a relief. the night of the 4th of july, i was sitting in my room and looking out the window, wishing i could see some fireworks. all of the sudden, the sky was streaked with flashes of lightening which continued throughout the night. my own personal light show. i felt my furrowed brow relax and my face round into a smile. even though i had been feeling quite disappointed and overwhelmed by everything, the lightening hit me like a sign. everything will be alright.
posted by Jen @ 7:19 PM
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